TELEPHONIC...... AND FINE !!!!!!

The five of us are all on telephonic relationships at the moment and it sucks big time. I would love to see JC's new job area, meet the people he works with,see where he stays and just know he is OK. I only have the telephone to try and gauge if this boy of mine is OK. It's fine.... Here is a word I detest BUT it is always present. "How are you?" "Fine..." What the hell does that help. It says nothing at all. Rossi is at inter varsity in Bloemfontein. I had 6 calls from him today. Fantastic as I now where he is and what he is doing at regular intervals BUT it is on the bleddie phone. "How are you?" "Fine." hat shitty word again.... Dian chats on the phone and I can hear his hart is broken and he is going through a rough patch. Again I only have the phone to judge....

Last night a call with Hannes was SOOOOOO frustrating. Things that are out of my control and have to be done via courier to him in Dubai made him so unhappy on the phone (again) that it was a bad conversation and very frustrating. It had the trend of nearly being "picked out" !!!Today spoke to all by phone hell I even now have skype on my laptop (I installed and it works !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Do remember this is my diary of thought so I do not want to sound like an agony aunt just complaining, but it is what is racing through my mind tonight (Sorry early morning as sleep is not high on my agenda at the moment.

I am so grateful to have all the phone contact as without it it would be unbearable but it is the most frustrating way of communication. And the terrible word FINE......Can any one help me with it's true meaning as all I can get from it is that all is not good but does not want to discuss it.....

I watched an old movie today. Gillian on her 37th birthday. This man can not get over the death of his wife so he speaks to her every day........ He in the end had to let go as it was hurting his daughter. Well this got me thinking of communication and how important it is to chat. Hannes and i normally had early mornings to chat. I miss that as we sometimes discussed issues but mostly it was just chatting about everything and nothing. We now only discuss what is needed to be said. I know it has to be that way but it scares the hell out of me because we can easily loose the art of chatting......and then what..... Luckily it is only about 9 more days before i go to Dubai. I am dying to see everything and to be able to visualise what Hannes talks about on the phone. I need so much more information..............I can never handle the unknown. I can handle anything as long as I now what I am facing.

At last also one wait is over. Tomorrow I fetch Dian to stay until Wednesday as he is busy with trial exams and is only writing on Thursday. He will just have to study here with me. I think it will be very good for him to be home for a while. Friday I fetch him again for midterm break and he then also has to study as it is in the middle of exams. Monday night take him back and then I go to Dubai..... I can not wait anymore. Although i have a lot to do this week (Yeah) it will make the time go fast.

I had an absolute binge day today. I buy meringues form a shop n Umhlanga. I am totally addicted to these meringues. Well I polished the lot today. (Will not tell you how many packets I bought !!!!!!) A total sugar high tonight for sure.

Doing my filing last night I found a map of Dubai. I took it to Clydene as she and Ermanno are in Dubai end August. So she can prepare and orientate herself to Dubai. Ermanno was also pleased for the map.

Hannes says he had a day in the sun today at the apartment pool and made roast chicken and roast potatoes tonight. ( I had meringues and meringues and more meringues.....)We do not have a dish washer in the apartment (No space) so dishes windows and ironing are a true saying to what my life is going to be. WHOOPPPEEE. Coming from Africa that is a total unknown version of life.... We are so spoilt. BUT i will be FINE !!!!!!

I have to wonder how it will be to read this blog in a years time again....... Another reason I do the blog is for that too and also to keep all my friends and fans up to date on our life and thoughts. Strange that tomorrow is our Sunday and in Dubai it is the first day of the week. They have our Friday and Saturday as their weekend. I think they call our Sunday Monday.

It is freezing cold here tonight. Must be a cold front coming over. Strange to think that Dubai today was in the 46C. I am planning on coming back with a tan as well. Tanning every day for and hour or 2 will do the trick. Also I believe it is a feel good thing as well. Hannes bought me this book on Dubai on all I have to know. It will be in my bag permanently until I find my own feet. It has amazing info and maps and as i have to make Dubai my new home I intend to embrace it with both hands and go for the experience all the way. Belly dancing classes are high on the list of to do's. (I can practise my moves while I am ironing or washing dishes!!!!!!!!! Might just be good for the figure as well.

Now my mind is empty....... (Hell does not take much to empty my mind hey!!!!!!

Chat later.