I AM ALIVE AND CRAZY

I went for dinner at Ouboet and Ousus (Mario an Marietjie) tonight. Was such fun. Had fabulous pork belly and veg. Ouboet cooked. Clydene and Ermanno were also there. We had good food and good conversation. Marietjie's son Kevin and Theresa (his wife) were also there. Well I got a crazy thought to go to the casino after dinner. (All vodka and redbull's fault!!!)Got Clydene Theresa and Kevin to go along. I won NOTHING but had lots of laughs and fun. Something I that I do not understand is: The casino takes your money so easily but to get your car out the parking lot is top security......

I tried talking to the machine, security cameras and staff about the good cause to make me win as I wanted Clydene and myself to go to Zanzibar for a holiday (shit knows we need it...) but all were deaf and did not hear our reasoning..... All the same we had a good time and it was time well spent. (Good fellowship...) .

Last night Clydene had me for dinner. Hells bells I am so spoilt. having dinner with good friends every night, how lucky can one be.... She made pork roast, roast potatoes and veg ....to die for. If not for my friends I will be having cauliflower every day. Or eggs on toast. Too lazy to make decent food and not nice to cook for 1.... Chocolates and coffee are so much easier......

Hannes now has an e-mail address and it will be easy and cheap to chat. Also only 10 days until I see him again. I really miss him so much. He is my barometer and my stability. My best friend. I really love him lots and miss him....This is not ideal to be apart but we both now it is the only way at the moment as the situation needs the dedication to what it needs.

Poor Hannes is up to buying vacuum cleaners and ironing baskets and globes... New dwelling to settle. Strange to think we have 2 full homes in SA and now settling student type living in Dubai.... Meaning small flat with just what we need at a short period of time. I think it is good to have this "stock taking" experience. Just hope we can do lots of travelling as well.

At the casino I asked the waiter why he works there. He said he is saving money to go back to school and finish his studies. I have to wonder what he thinks about these lunatics feeding these machines with money which he feels can be put to much better use.... Life is interesting. I also have to wonder why he did not finish school?.....

Tomorrow my agenda is clean. I am in limbo. Waiting for my deadlines to appear.... I have been invited to watch the Olympics opening with Ouboet and Ousus. I think I will join them. I feel slightly purposeless at the moment. Waiting......waiting..... in limbo. This is totally new to me as I always have had deadlines and routine. Now the routine is only mine to follow until the date of deadline. Deadline for me is Sunday to fetch Dian from school. Tuesday to Richards bay for work and then next weekend Dian for mid term break. The 19th to Dubai. he days in between are at my leisure................it is difficult as I had deadline daily when Hannes was here. Nice to see him every day and chat and be part of his daily doings and goings. I know for sure I am not made to be alone..... Believe me I can cope but I do not like it at all.

OK enough I now will try to sleep.....that is not easy. Seems 4 in the morning is my new bed time......Up at 7 again to wait and wait and wait......... Not nice.

Chat later again.