GREAT WEEKEND - FEELING EMPTY

THE WEDDING PARTY. PIET AND KARINA WITH DEIDRE AND CHARL ALL THE VAN DIJK MEN AT THE WEDDING.
(L TO R) ROSSOUW,JC, DIAN, JAN, PIET AND CHRIS

THE TWO OF US A FEW YEARS AGO. WE ARE SO "SPIFFY"

I had a wonderful weekend with my boys. Dian and I left on Friday first Johannesburg and then to Parys for the wedding. Dian did the "driving miss daisy number" I feels so strange to sIt next to MY YOUNGEST son while he is driving a car.....Talk about paradigm shift.......He did very well though.

I had a very busy week end with very little sleep. Friday night was spent with Jc and friends at a dance studio where JC does is a part time dance instructor.. Wow he is good, and loves the dancing tremendously. I was very proud to see this son of mine strut his stuff. He is also so pleasant to the ladies (older) at the studio. ( No he soes not get tips !!!!!) He is a real charmer. Dian and I tried to join in the dances and really had a big laugh at our plenty pairs of feet........ We gave it a good bash and gave ourselves full marks for effort.....

I did not sleep at all and saw the sun rise on Saturday morning. We left early to fetch Rossouw from Potchefstroom to go to the wedding.

These three brothers were so pleased and happy to see each other that they drove me mad in the car...Just chirping each other ,and me from time to time.

We really all looked so smart and Hannes would have been so proud of his family.

The wedding was lovely and we had a great time. I was so proud of my boys as they all kept me on my toes all night and went out of their way that I did not feel lonely.....I kept a brave face although I was very tearful from time to time.

We all missed Hannes terribly... It just feels so strange not to have him there. It was his eldest brothers daughters wedding. Lovely family affair with kids running all over the place and the adults dancing and having a great time. Thank heavens this is a temporary thing. I am so thankful this is not permanent to not see Hannes. I do count my blessings.....

Dian caught the garter and had to dance with the girl who caught to bouquet. He is so conscious of the fact that he cannot dance. he was a nervous wreck but "pulled " it off very well.

I took a scarf and blindfolded him earlier and took him to dance. This was amazing as as soon as he could not see the people dancing he did very well. In the end he literally danced all night.

Sunday morning we had a family breakfast with the other family members also staying at the B+B. Then the long trek home began.

Dian again drove the whole way and did a superb job.

I cried so much this time around saying goodbye to the other 2 boys. Don't now why , could a combination of good times had and me with total lack of sleep................

We arrived home safe and sound and I went straight to bed.

The empty feelings come from having to e-mail Hannes with the weekend news.............It is so matter of fact...he also e-mails about the new car................ I hate it. I want to experience this all together. That is the reason for the foto of the 2 of us on this entry. We really are so good together.he gives me my strict lines of what to do and when.he has the rules in life..........The black and white outlines. If he was with me this weekend I would have slept........he would have chased me to bed. I again am the colouring in pencil in his life....I give the spice and colour....... Do not get me wrong we have our moments of absolute terror too. then the black and white lines and colour clash..............Boy of boy we can really have colourful arguments.... me the drama queen having tantrums and him cool calm and collected not getting involved........Picture a 3 year old behaving badly with a colouring in book and millions of crayons........................ Now you have an idea only of what it looks like

I miss him badly. I want to smell him (I spray his after shave in the car and in the room..... nuts I know) I want to hug and feel him and tell him all the news and not of flipping technology.....

But this will pass soon too.

I also miss Pierre terribly. When I was in Dubai I did not feel it so intensely as here...... I just hope he is having lots of milk tart, nutella, peanut butter, fresh bread and liver spread............Some of the many stuffs he enjoyed. O I also hope thre is hardware store nearby.....

I had a young guy coming to me this weekend at one of the bun fights saying he is so attracted to me!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was blown away from schock...... I actually think he liked the picture of the older lady buying drinks.......and being herself with confidence. I let him off easy and said to him that I am flattered but no can do......Nice ego trip though.

Hannes has a big day today as the hospital's final licensing will be done today. That means patients in 2 weeks. I am sure he cannot wait. he is not the biggest on admin.......

Not the best company , will do more for this blog later.

L