BACK IN SA

DUBAI - THE HOME I LEFT THIS MORNING UMDLOTI - THE HOME I CAME TO TONIGHT
MY THREE BOYS - HERE IN SA (LEFT TO RIGHT: DIAN. JC AND ROSSOUW)
I was not a happy chappy this morning, or rather since last night, leaving Dubai for SA. I am seriously confused......Where is home?. Have I left home to come home or have I come home? Am I making any sense at all..............The saying goes "home is where the heart is"............ Well my hart is in 2 countries.....Very far from each other and very different from one another. Dubai has Hannes in it which is a large portion of my heart, and then is SA has my boys in it which is also a large portion of my heart. Dubai is a concrete jungle, real city life and very small living spaces, and then Umdloti in SA has such beautiful ocean view's, and large living spaces.......... So very very very confusing.
I found the entry to SA today so different already. I was clutching my bags and goodies, the language is so familiar BUT the immigration staff very rude and unfriendly. So different from the safe feeling and friendliness of Dubai.
Well I do not want to say one is better than the other, but it is so totally different. Airport staff at Oliver Thambo international are loud and rude and unfriendly. That was my very first impression of being "home".
Flight from Dubai was not nice. I was sandwiched between 2 men. One of them have never heard of Mitchum and the smell of sweat was over whelming....the other was clean and Ok as travel companion. I moved very quickly to an empty seat. I was asked by the air hostess to move back to my seat (have no idea why and did not ask her either.) I refused and said that is she is willing to sit next to that stinky man for 1 hour I will move back gladly.....She left me to stay in my NEW seat....
On arrival in Johannesburg, I got my luggage and cleared customs with no problem as I had 3 suitcases with me BUT all empty. This was a first for me....I have NEVER travelled light... The suitcases were brought back for us to have packing holders for the December trip to Dubai.
I now have clothes and toot brushes and make up and everything in 3 living areas. Richards bay has full stock, Umdloti has full stock and Dubai is live able..... CONFUSING...Still do not know what to call home.
In Johannesburg JC, my eldest son, was waiting for me.. So good to see him and he looks very good. Clean shaved, hair neat and clothes clean (A mother is such a "scanning device !!!!!!!!!!) Check kids up and down quickly....... We had a meal together as my next flight was only 2 hours later. It was so good to see him and to have such a lekker chat. I miss the boys badly and miss the telephonic conversations too much..... Well he got his Dubai gifts and was very pleased. I then left for the Durban flight.
Ermanno and Clydene fetched me from Durban airport. We had coffee together and then \i came "home" to settle all before I go to Richards bay tomorrow to do my surgery work and check the house and pets.

I miss Hannes badly already, as we are the best of friends and also married to each other. We do not have to say much and the other knows exactly what thought and feelings are.
He might just have the most difficult time now as he is alone and I at least have the kids here and very good friends. I stocked the apartment well so that he feels at home there..... To a certain degree I am so scared I miss some nice action and interesting things there........

I am going to a family wedding this weekend with my boys and am looking forward to that. I will also have to make time to go and see my dad with the boys in the next 3 weeks... That will be very tuff. This time I now it will be the last time I will see him......
Well me very bushed now.
Bye for now will chat later again.
Loreta