FAT AND CONFUSED

I am eating myself into a standstill again. These foto's were taken a few years ago when i was at my fattest. If I do not do some eating control I might be there very soon, and that is my biggest fear in life........
So I will now again try to take control of my eating habits. It is insane as I get up from the dinner table, eaten a good meal and 2 minutes later I am in the pantry rummaging for sweets, chocolates or anything I can lay my hands on. The more I try to control the more my brain says "I AM FRICKEN HUNGRY!!!!!"
Frustrations at the moment are.
1. Hannes leaves in 2 weeks.
2. Still do not have accommodation in Dubai.
3. I have to look after all here in SA on my own. Surgery and home side.
4. Sell the house and the cars.
cancel all un needed bank accounts.
5. Cancel mail box.
6. Reroute all mail.
Don't want to think of more right now.
Ah shit hold me down as I am on my way to the pantry again......

My mom leaves back to cape town tomorrow. We have an early airport start as she is leaving at 9h00
Tomorrow night we have a "lekker" night as all the dinner club friends will have a bunfight with Clydene.
This might be Hannes's last weekend in Umdloti.

Dian is really loving the choir tour in Germany. he has posted some foto's on facebook . I think he is learning at every passing minute. So glad we can give him this experience.

Rossi's luggage the other day had me laughing as I am always so over when ever I return BUT I did not think of myself but of maria.
When she returned to new Zealand she was so totally overweight on the luggage we had to have her carry close to 25kg hand luggage. Luckily Kobus Wiese (ex SA rugby player) was on the same flight and we asked him to help her. The hand luggage was mostly foto albums of her year in SA.
What she weighed in to New Zealand was also a hellava lot.... Miss you my sweetie pie and still have lots of giggles of your year in SA.
Remember matric farewell.....
Live you lots.
Well all for now and I will stay out the pantry today hopefully.