NAFI

EXACTLY HOW I FEEL...ALL DRESSED UP AND NOWHERE TO GO



THIS IS ME IN MY "NAFI" POSE


I feel so NAFI today..For those who do not know the phrase it stands for No Ambition,F**k all Interest.
You see I feel so trapped today....I am stuck in Richards Bay with a damn house that does not want to sell and two fantastic cars that do not want to sell either. It may be due to the economy or just maybe it is not the right time yet (who ever decides on that one !!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I do know and believe all thing happen when they should and for the right reason BUT today I am sorely being tested on my own theories.....................
I fiddled around the house today. Did my pool jobs and stood for hours with my hosepipe....... trying to find a calm place in myself...(Hell that is always very difficult to find)
I realise I have so much to be grateful for but some days I just feel to hell with being grateful and pleasing and understanding...Today I want to be mean and ungrateful and totally non understanding. You see the only thing is I saw NOBODY to take this agro feelings out on.... maybe for the best as I now still have some friends around.

Jc and I did his budget for this coming month. He is in a tight spot as he has just moved to new accommodation. He asked me to help and guide him for the next 3 months...... He just better listen and stick to budget or I will get meaner than Trevor Manual when calculating taxes............
I have to wonder if his money troubles stem form incorrect rearing at home.................OR maybe not giving any money exposure at home when he was growing up. Hannes and I thought that they will have enough tine to learn to manage money when they are bigger.....Maybe this was a mistake. maybe we should have given all the money advise from a very early age.....Any way can't change the past now can we.....

Rossi wrote his maths paper today (his tough subject) and he thinks he will pass it but just marginally. Him and I also had a little rally a few weeks ago about his attitude towards his money matters and studies... Anyway he phoned tonight specially and said he just wants to say thank you and he loves me very much. That made my very kakky day a helluva lot better.

Dian is his normal cheery self on the phone. he has a gift as he always has a smile in his voice on the phone. These three boys are very good at phoning home very regularly. We really do not have much news to exchange every day BUT just to hear their voices is good and to hear they are OK is very good.

Hannes and I did another Skype number today. It was like pulling teeth. I do not have any news and he is also just treading water until out lives can resume some form of normality....(as if him and I have ever had a normal life ....) He was off today and drove to Jumeira park which is on the beach ,only to find that Mondays is ladies only. he sure as hell won't pass for that one... In the end he lay on the beach about 500m form the Burg Al Arab...Tough life hey....Only not nice thing is he is alone.

Luckily Laurika and Nervana (her daughter) are staying with me. I cooked supper for the 3 of us and it is nice to get some human company in the evenings.
Rambo has very limited communication skills............... He does adore having me all to himself in the day though. But I can only do "hello rambo, my skat, shadow uit, lekker koffie ect for limited time)
I also do not have any deadlines now (first time in 15 years) so it makes me feel totally useless.

I got a call from Rachelle (my niece) and she said I am an inspiration to her.............that was so lekker to hear as I felt very useless at that stage. It gave me the oomph to get and blog tonight as I had no intention or inclination to blog tonight. Purely for the fact that I do not have big news or happening to report on. So I am reporting on my NAFI attitude...........

Time for some lessons for you all as I am trying to learn my Arabic . So here goes.
Hullo - ahlan
Thanks you - shukran
Yes - naAhm
No - laa (pronounce like lair with no R)
Help - ekha uuni
Sorry - aasif
Please - min faDlak

I struggle my backside off with this Arabic as I am useless in languages. I am not a reader (except for any and all magazines) so my brain is not trained for the written word. But I am going to get just some basics going... I just need to say hello , goodbye, how much, sorry, please and piss off in Arabic then I am set.......................................

In looking for foto's to add to the blog tonight I realised that one never keeps a bad foto of yourself (so had to use my Thailand monkeys again) and also I am always the one behind the camera so have very few foto's of myself................ Will have to do something about that as I would really love to irritate hannes's second wife by foto's popping up every where of me...See I am in a disgusting mean mood today............Even contemplating hannes's second wife's torment....
No no enough I am going to bed and maybe just maybe tomorrow is better..................
L